So often I would look at my daughter and say how cute or pretty or beautiful she looked. I often saw my friends the same way. When I looked in the mirror I just saw a mom, a women. Or sometimes I just saw an overweight person, greying hair, flabby, age lines etc etc etc. We all do that, we look and see what we think are faults, the negatives we don't like about ourselves. Even though my daughter and husband complimented me on my looks I never really believed them as true.
Well, this past Friday I got ready for work followed the same routine I've done for years with one big difference. When I finished washing my hands I looked up into the mirror and I said to myself god, I look fantastic !!! I saw a great lookin women, I was glowing!! I felt happy, alive- I felt good!
The mirror always did show me truth, for some reason I chose not to see it. I have lost weight, gained confidence, my negative thoughts are diminishing rapidly, I love who I'm becoming, I love my life and I love myself and for the 1st time in a long time I knew I looked good. I love looking in the mirror and I now see the truth.
I am lucky to be me because of the love, positive comments, support, guidance and connectedness with you. Thank you. I can't wait to continue down my path to discover more about my body, mind and soul.
Saturday 30 April 2011
Friday 29 April 2011
Pictures Are Worth a Thousand Words
As I walked through the mall and came to the camera store, I smiled thinking of all the good pictures and bad pictures I've taken over the years. All the good and bad pictures I've seen from others and marvelled at how small a camera can be now a days.
In 1981 I bought my first camera. A Cannon AE1 SLR, a big heavy manual camera that I thought was going to make me the next Peter Parker. Not the super part the good photographer part. I was keen to learn and did a lot of reading about lighting, aperature settings, focus, etc. I had a lot of fun for a few years, but my daughter was born in 1984 so priorities quickly change. I lost interest, I stopped seeing real beauty in things, I stopped seeing color etc. Last Christmas my husband wanted to buy me whole new gear, he must of known something I didn't at that time because I still wasn't really interested.
Lately my interest has peeked again. Maybe because of facebook, twitter etc. people are posting more pictures, changing their profile pics and uploading pics for others to see whether using Instagram or the many other tools out there. But I think what has really grabbed me are the incredible pictures I have seen from friends. Brandi P. shows me a picture and I read a thousand words from it. A clear and vivid story is always presented in her shots. Marietta B. a friend from Germany has the eye for design and clarity in her shots that make me say "wow" for each and every one of them.
I again see the beauty in black and white and color is vivid seeing a million different hues. I realize the people who can tell me a 1000 word story from their pictures have a talent I may never know, but there is starting to be a slowly rising desire to try. I would be happy with a 1 word descriptive for my pictures for now and one day I hope a thousand words describes what I see through the lens of my body mind and soul as I journey to create my life and refind me.
In 1981 I bought my first camera. A Cannon AE1 SLR, a big heavy manual camera that I thought was going to make me the next Peter Parker. Not the super part the good photographer part. I was keen to learn and did a lot of reading about lighting, aperature settings, focus, etc. I had a lot of fun for a few years, but my daughter was born in 1984 so priorities quickly change. I lost interest, I stopped seeing real beauty in things, I stopped seeing color etc. Last Christmas my husband wanted to buy me whole new gear, he must of known something I didn't at that time because I still wasn't really interested.
Lately my interest has peeked again. Maybe because of facebook, twitter etc. people are posting more pictures, changing their profile pics and uploading pics for others to see whether using Instagram or the many other tools out there. But I think what has really grabbed me are the incredible pictures I have seen from friends. Brandi P. shows me a picture and I read a thousand words from it. A clear and vivid story is always presented in her shots. Marietta B. a friend from Germany has the eye for design and clarity in her shots that make me say "wow" for each and every one of them.
I again see the beauty in black and white and color is vivid seeing a million different hues. I realize the people who can tell me a 1000 word story from their pictures have a talent I may never know, but there is starting to be a slowly rising desire to try. I would be happy with a 1 word descriptive for my pictures for now and one day I hope a thousand words describes what I see through the lens of my body mind and soul as I journey to create my life and refind me.
Thursday 28 April 2011
What Is Time?
Today my daughter questioned, "why there is never enough time" to do all the things in a day we want to do. She decided in the end not to fret over it, but just let it happen, whatever got done -great, if something didn't get done today there was always tomorrow.
I started thinking about time and its relevance in a day. We start each day based on what time we need to get up, what time do we eat breakfast, what time is coffee break, what time is dinner, what time, what time what time. Now I realize we need some sence of structured time to function reasonably in our crazy world, but why don't we let our bodies tell time for us. Why don't we sleep when we are tired and why don't we eat when we are truly hungry and not because time says so.
I believe time happens faster than we can keep up to it anyway and we never catch up to the current time. We have a deja vu, like this has already happened, or I've been here before to show us time has gone by.
So don't think so much about time - it is only a guideline, a tool to help us navigate through our current life. We don't know how much time we will have on this earth, don't worry about it just find pleasure/happiness whatever that is to you, in each second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year....
I started thinking about time and its relevance in a day. We start each day based on what time we need to get up, what time do we eat breakfast, what time is coffee break, what time is dinner, what time, what time what time. Now I realize we need some sence of structured time to function reasonably in our crazy world, but why don't we let our bodies tell time for us. Why don't we sleep when we are tired and why don't we eat when we are truly hungry and not because time says so.
I believe time happens faster than we can keep up to it anyway and we never catch up to the current time. We have a deja vu, like this has already happened, or I've been here before to show us time has gone by.
So don't think so much about time - it is only a guideline, a tool to help us navigate through our current life. We don't know how much time we will have on this earth, don't worry about it just find pleasure/happiness whatever that is to you, in each second, minute, hour, day, week, month, year....
Defining moments
Defining Moment
Sometimes in our lives there are defining moments. Moments where we are directly inolved in a life changing event- the birth of child- the death of a family member.
Then there are times when a life changing event happens around us in the world we know and it affects us because we are part of this world- 9/11- electing a new prime minister- the demolishing of the Berlin Wall.
Then there are times in our lives when a defining moment happens to someone close to us that affects who we are because of their relationship with us- a graduation- a spiritual realization- a final divorce.
We create are own lives by being open, trusting and eliminating fears. And as we travel down our own paths defining moments will enter. Sometimes changes our path, sometimes haulting our path for a while and sometimes giving affirmation that we are on the right path.
Watch for, listen to, acknowledge and grow with each defining moment that touches you.
Sometimes in our lives there are defining moments. Moments where we are directly inolved in a life changing event- the birth of child- the death of a family member.
Then there are times when a life changing event happens around us in the world we know and it affects us because we are part of this world- 9/11- electing a new prime minister- the demolishing of the Berlin Wall.
Then there are times in our lives when a defining moment happens to someone close to us that affects who we are because of their relationship with us- a graduation- a spiritual realization- a final divorce.
We create are own lives by being open, trusting and eliminating fears. And as we travel down our own paths defining moments will enter. Sometimes changes our path, sometimes haulting our path for a while and sometimes giving affirmation that we are on the right path.
Watch for, listen to, acknowledge and grow with each defining moment that touches you.
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