Introspection

I thought last week was a bad week for me. I seemed to have tore the miniscus in my left knee according to my physio (whom I would trust with my life). There was lots of swelling and pain and the use of crutches. For 3 days while I mostly layed on my back with leg iced and elevated I thought, I cried, I sang to myself but mostly I felt sad that I could not do the things I loved.

I could not ride my road bike, I could not go to crossfit, I could not go to yoga. I could not be active the way I wanted to be. When I closed my eyes and reached for the inner peace within, how precious my health was, kept coming at me in my thoughts. How fortunate I am that I can go ride, go to the gym, practice yoga and that every chance I get to do any activities, I will do at my very best, I will push myself to give it my all and never say I can't. I will always try at 100%.

I felt in my soul how important my health was and being active was to me. A true value in my heart that I want to nourish and grow. I've had many minor injuries in the past, but never looked at it quite this way before. I looked back at the times when I gave up, didn't push myself to do just one more, didn't push beyond the wall.

While looking inside myself I also saw that my injury was just that an injury, something that will heal. Why was I being such a baby over cartilidge. I wasn't loosing a limb, I wasn't being diagnosed with a disease, I wasn't given a timeline to live. My injury is nothing compared to what some people are going through. I saw that I am so fortunate and a small injury like mine pales in comparison to others.

The physical pain and egotiscal sadness I felt, is so minor compared to what Brandi and her family were going through. The unknown diagnosis, care plan, future. The strength from within that Brandi has, to learn, live and grow through her father in laws experience.

Introspection gave me the words, the peace, the love, the healing from within so as I journey to awaken my body mind and soul I will feel more of the connection an alignment with my true values which will allow me to give more of my love, strength, peace and healing to others like Brandi and her family.

COURAGE

My best pal Wendy had a photoshoot done a few weeks ago and I had the wonderful opportunity to see it happen live. I learned alot about cameras, lighting and background. I learned about makeup, hair and eye lashes and how much patience it takes and how many wardrobe changes are needed for a shoot.  But what I learned most about was the courage it takes to be the model.

As a sexy, fit woman Wendy is so comfortable within her own skin. She likes the way she looks and really doesn't give a damn what others think. I like that attitude. Wendy's pictures exuded her confidence with her body, mind and soul which I so admire. Some women looked at the pictures and were very judgemental instantly. Not seeing the beautiful, fit, sexy woman. Not seeing the courage it took to model. Some women were jealous I'm sure, angry that they don't have the courage to be the model.

Some women like me, saw the pictures and said, shit I'd love to have a body that I feel so good and confident with that I too would have the courage to do a photoshoot. There is no more pure, whole beauty than a woman, a fit, sexy woman half naked. I know all the guys would agree.

As I awaken my body, mind and soul I hope one day to allow my courage to rise and open enough to allow me to be the model. To show my fit, sexy body in photos just as I want! For people to see the shots and say that is a beautiful picture and for me to say it took a lot of courage and I'm glad I did it!